When you lose someone close to you the first thing we tend to do is question God & His timing. We ask why for our selfish reasoning instead of asking for understanding, strength & courage to get through the trying time. Today I lost my uncle, my uncle raised me as though I was his own. He taught me things that a father is supposed to teacher their daughter. He showed me how a man should treat a woman & taught me to never settle for less than what I was worth. It's hard to lose someone who had such s major presence in your life. When I think of how I feel...I just feel sad, really sad. How do you cope with the lost of a big piece of your heart? How do you cope knowing that you'll never hear that person's voice again? This person being one of the only people who showed you what unconditional love felt like, the person who made you feel safe, the person who made you feel beautiful & genuinely loved you for you. I'm not sure how I'm going to cope, I don't know how to grieve, I feel lost & it all feels surreal to me right now. I'm putting my trust in the Lord, that's all I know to do.
When I grieve, I like to grieve alone...it sounds strange, but it's just how I deal with things. It's honestly awkward saying out loud to someone that my uncle has passed, it makes me face the stark reality and I don't like that. When I think of the 29 years I have had with my uncle, all I can do is smile! I'll always remember him as the strong, wise man that he was.
The Winking Lizard was our favorite spot, he and I had been going there since I was at least 5. Blessed to have my own memories and blessed to have these memories for my son as well!
Thanks everyone for all of your support during this trying time! I greatly appreciate it!
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